how wonderful

How wonderful it is to experience the freedom that can be found only in Christ.

How wonderful it is to feel genuine happiness for someone who has hurt you in the past.

How wonderful it is to be fully released from disappointment, hurt and sadness.

How wonderful it is to clearly see the evidence of growth and maturity in yourself.

How wonderful it is to be at peace with the world and with those around you.

How wonderful it is to know that you are living the life you were meant to live.

How wonderful it is to be alone but never lonely. 

How wonderful it is to live in complete liberty – only possible by the power of God.

Amen.

♥ Ames

wishing you joy and peace

A friend from the past is getting married today.  I would have loved to attend but teaching has the priority since I put the students on a 3 week break during my exams and we have our end-of-year concert in a week… but I send the couple my very best wishes :).  I’m glad they are marrying each other and no one else.  If I was there and had been given a mic, I would have sung you this song…

What joy, what joy for those whose hope is in the name of the Lord!

What peace, what peace for those whose confidence is Him alone

I’ve been saving this song for the last month to post today :).  Also, aren’t those photos beautiful? There were even ones with cats… I knew you would have liked them :). (the video I had up has since been taken down *sad face*)

I pray that you’ll grow more in love with the Lord together as a couple and in turn, love each other the way Christ loves His Bride, the church.

In spite of everything or maybe because of everything, I’m thankful we crossed paths and I look forward to the day that I can call you and say, ‘Do you want to meet my husband and I for lunch?’

♥ Ames

delirious with joy

Is it possible to be delirious with joy?

This past day I’ve had this giddy feeling and I seem to always feel a slight smile on my face, even in the midst of the dreary, stormy Melbourne weather.  It’s like being in love for the first time but this time, I’m not in love with the boy who will go on to break my heart, I’m in love with the Saviour who nursed me back into wholeness.  So perfectly too.  The beauty of His healing power is that it won’t even leave a scar once the process is complete (reminds me of how Daniel’s friends walked out of the fiery furnace without even the smell of smoke on their clothes).

For the FIRST TIME, in what has been a difficult 2+ years, the clouds that were hanging over my head have totally lifted and the forecast is clear, blue skies here on in :D.  Those clouds will never bother me again, praise Jesus!  I feel so detached from all that hurt and pain… I look back now and wonder, ‘Seriously?  Did that really all happen to me?’  It’s almost like it’s another girl’s story now but I still get to retain the benefits of the life lessons, the character-shaping and the experience of God’s grace in a new and personal way.  I get the better deal at the end of it all :).

God is so good.  He is so faithful.  Earlier this week, my BFF sent me a text with this quote, saying it reminded her of me:

God can heal a broken heart but first we need to give him all the pieces.

It’s true.  I can testify to this truth.  Why I held onto that last piece boggles my mind but I’m so glad I finally let go of my own shame and guilt.  Freedom is found in Christ, and Christ alone!

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

I think Romans 8:28 is fast becoming my life verse haha

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Oh Babe,

I can’t wait to see the amazing love story God has planned for us!  I guess He’s already working on it as I type this so in a way, we’re already living it… maybe we’re in the prologue right now haha

Anyway, I know it’s gonna be awesome – not because I’m building up a false hope about what courtship and marriage will look like, but because my hope is in the Author of Love and He is going to do a much better job of writing this story than either of us… I know it’s going to make people stand back and go, ‘Wow, that had to be God, had to be of God.’  I love you sooooooo much already and my heart will beat only for you.

Always and forever,

Your girl.

♥ Ames

I’m so happy

I’m so getting the Sunday school kiddies to do this for Christmas!  They may not like me for it hehe but it doesn’t matter because….

I’m so happy, so very happy

I’ve got the love of Jesus in my heart—–

I’m so happy so very happy,

I’ve got the love of Jesus in my heart.

*sing with me*

I’ve got the joy joy joy joy down in my heart….

:)

♥ Ames

the face off

S: You’ve stuffed up big time.  Your dreams have been crushed and there’s nothing you can do about it.  What a disappointment you must be to the Father.  You are such a horrible fake of a Christian.  You deserve to carry this burden for the rest of your life.  You’ll never be free from it.  You are not worthy of His love.  How could anyone love you ever again?  

A: Yes, I’ve stuffed up.  Yes, my dreams may have been crushed and there is nothing I can do about it.  BUT, my Father can and has already done something about it.  In His mercy and love, He sent His Son to take all my stuff ups and replaced them with His perfections.  I am made righteous by Christ.  When my Father sees me, He doesn’t see my stuff ups- He sees the blood that has washed me white as snow.  I WILL boast of my mistakes and weaknesses because it highlights the goodness and grace of my Father.   Christ set me free when He traded places with me and took the penalty on my behalf.  He shouted, ‘Abba Father, why have you forsaken me?’ so that I could shout, ‘Abba Father, why have you so blessed and loved me?’  I was never worthy in the first place and He loves me in spite of it all because He is the Great Author of Love.

And there is nothing that you can do to convince me otherwise.  There is no more record of my sin, you cannot condemn me anymore.  I am made whole through His suffering.  He will give me new dreams as I’ve laid my burdens at the cross.  So stop lying to me.  Go away, leave me alone.  This is the last time we are going to have this conversation.

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I’m not going to pretend that nothing happened – that’s just living in denial.

I’m not just going to avoid it – that’s just running away.

I’ve realised that the S dude had the upper hand all this time because I had not dealt with my mistakes properly.  I gave him a foothold in my life so he kept poking me where it hurts and toying with my mind ’til I could not stand it any longer.

I feel like this is a mental battle that I’ll have to keep fighting but I’m more equipped now – correction: I was always equipped but I just kept forgetting I could hit back :D.  I know he’ll try to trick me again into believing his lies but hopefully, he’ll realise that it won’t work anymore.  The ending has already been decided and guess what?  I win- because He is on my side.  ‘Greater is He that is within me than he that is in the world.’

I am pressed but not crushed, persecuted not abandoned
Struck down but not destroyed
I am blessed beyond the curse for His promise will endure
And His joy’s going to be my strength
Though the sorrow may last for the night
His joy comes with the morning
I’m trading my sorrows.
I’m trading my shame.
I’m laying them down for the joy of the Lord.

Trading My Sorrows, Darrell Evans

♥ Ames