Is it possible to be delirious with joy?
This past day I’ve had this giddy feeling and I seem to always feel a slight smile on my face, even in the midst of the dreary, stormy Melbourne weather. It’s like being in love for the first time but this time, I’m not in love with the boy who will go on to break my heart, I’m in love with the Saviour who nursed me back into wholeness. So perfectly too. The beauty of His healing power is that it won’t even leave a scar once the process is complete (reminds me of how Daniel’s friends walked out of the fiery furnace without even the smell of smoke on their clothes).
For the FIRST TIME, in what has been a difficult 2+ years, the clouds that were hanging over my head have totally lifted and the forecast is clear, blue skies here on in :D. Those clouds will never bother me again, praise Jesus! I feel so detached from all that hurt and pain… I look back now and wonder, ‘Seriously? Did that really all happen to me?’ It’s almost like it’s another girl’s story now but I still get to retain the benefits of the life lessons, the character-shaping and the experience of God’s grace in a new and personal way. I get the better deal at the end of it all :).
God is so good. He is so faithful. Earlier this week, my BFF sent me a text with this quote, saying it reminded her of me:
God can heal a broken heart but first we need to give him all the pieces.
It’s true. I can testify to this truth. Why I held onto that last piece boggles my mind but I’m so glad I finally let go of my own shame and guilt. Freedom is found in Christ, and Christ alone!
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
I think Romans 8:28 is fast becoming my life verse haha
I can’t wait to see the amazing love story God has planned for us! I guess He’s already working on it as I type this so in a way, we’re already living it… maybe we’re in the prologue right now haha
Anyway, I know it’s gonna be awesome – not because I’m building up a false hope about what courtship and marriage will look like, but because my hope is in the Author of Love and He is going to do a much better job of writing this story than either of us… I know it’s going to make people stand back and go, ‘Wow, that had to be God, had to be of God.’ I love you sooooooo much already and my heart will beat only for you.
Always and forever,