tired but not burnt out… yet.

It has come up a few times this year.

Probably for the past month I’ve felt it more than ever before.

That sense of being weary and journey-worn.

I’m sure more than once I’ve mentally responded to the usual, “How are you?”, with “I’m tired.”

It’s been a big year.  More so than anticipated.

I think I underestimated how draining full-time work can be on the body, mind and soul.  I’ve only just realised that I’ve been trying to play Superwoman for most of this year and it hasn’t been a healthy outcome.  I’ve been stressed, I’ve felt like a failure when I can’t execute tasks as well as I thought I should be… so close to burning out…

BUT not yet.  And let’s hope never.

It’s time to change strategies.  Actually, it’s time to change the mind, or more importantly renew the mind.

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Looking Ahead

You cannot go forward by constantly looking back in the rear vision mirror.

C.S. Lewis wrote, “there are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.”

Today, I want to encourage you to stop looking back (at the good or bad) and like the apostle Paul, “forget those things which are behind and reach forward to those things which are ahead so that you may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of you” (Philippians 3:12).

Your greatest ministry is before and not behind you.
Your greatest days are ahead and not behind you.
Your greatest marriage memories are in your future and not in your past.
Your best moments with your kids have yet to happen.
Your greatest accomplishments are before you.

Don’t let your past limits define your future, but let the Word of God and His promises define your future.

– taken from  Equip and Empower
God has been constantly reminding me through various sources that the best is really yet to come!  Our best days are still in front of us if we continue to dream and place those dreams in God’s hands.  He is more than able to handle it and He has our best interests at heart.  He cares more than we do about how our lives will turn out.
Look ahead and be excited for all God is doing and what he is going to do!
♥ Ames

dare you to move

A beautiful rendition:


I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift
Yourself up off by the floor

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

– Dare You To Move, Switchfoot

♥ Ames

P.S. This is post number 200, ppl! How did that happen? And in less than a year… whoa, I do post too often >.<

lost in divine romance

On the way home from a truly fabulous breakfast, I heard this playing on the radio:

Well I must admit this world often tempts my fallen eyes
And I fall in love with all my earthly home provides
But I make this vowing decision, to get lost in divine romance
And at times I forsake my first love, but He woes my heart again

‘Cause He’s the God of second chance

And I’m looking for the narrow way back to where I belong
And I’m looking for the narrow way that leads me to my home

Narrow, Nathan Tasker

This resonates so much with the journey I’ve been on lately.  I’m in awe with how He just beckons me to know Him more… getting ‘lost in divine romance’.  Sometimes it takes losing your way to find your way back again… if that makes sense.

This was the first time I’d heard of Nathan Tasker so after a bit of digging, I found out his family has experienced a tragedy of their own recently and this was a song that was birthed from it (yet to be recorded):

All The While

In the valley
In our suffering
When the shadow steals the light

In the moment
we are breaking
there our hearts will still decide

To find a song
when there is none

All the while
knowing you are good
All the while
looking to the cross
All the while
hidden in the shadow of your wings

In the waiting
In the quiet
When the answer’s slow to come

There your presence
will remind us
though your silent, we are loved

We’ll find a song
when there is none

You are with us in our sorrow
You are with us in our weeping
You are with us in our sowing
You are with us

You are with us in our hoping
You are with us in our healing
You are with us in our reaping
You are with us, ever with us!

– 2011 Tasker/Fieldes

I have often thought that the greatest tragedy in life is not death, or pain, or loss, or suffering. It is to experience any of these things and to be truly alone. It is no surprise that the ultimate promise of God (incarnated in Jesus) is this: “Never will I leave you”. After all, what is heaven apart from the eternal keeping of this promise?

So, I have learned one simple thing this past month after many tears and questions, with still more to come – God’s silence is not to be confused with His absence.

– Nathan Tasker

While Melbourne is engrossed in the Footy Grand Final, I think I shall go download his album now.

♥ Ames

[addition: I can’t believe I actually sat and watched some of the grand final… I guess, there’s always a first :).]

my yesterdays

Finally.  Finally, I’ve been able to put all that I learnt in those 6 months and after to use.  The hardest thing was thinking that I’d just wasted all that time and energy for nothing.  But that’s not true.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. – Romans 8:28

Little by little I’ve been able to help others who’ve struggled or are struggling or just shine a little light into the darkness or the unknown… and that’s been rewarding.  But recently, I put all I learnt on the table to help another and I knew that if I had not gone through that storm, I would not have been able to offer the comfort and reassurance that I did.  So thank you, Lord.  Thank you for the storm.

And hence, I decided to bring something over from my first blog – The First/Last Notes (which I think someone has already found before this announcement hehe).  I’d always hoped that someone would benefit from reading them (and I know one that has in the past) so given that the old blog is privatised (you lash out a lot when you are heartbroken and let’s just say it got ugly!), I thought I’d transfer them here so that perhaps another could find consolation and hope for a better tomorrow :).

I’ll end with the photo I found via Leeleegirl (I think you’re becoming one of my favourite bloggers!):

♥ Ames