Impatience uncovered

Oh wow. I just realised that I have used the word “impatient” at least 7 times in the last couple of posts… *sigh*

I think that being impatient really stems from not truely believing that God’s got the best plan for our lives. We’re impatient because we want things to happen on our timeline, not knowing or understanding that whatever we have before us is there for a reason, His purposes. 

I want to repent of this. I need to repent of this.

Impatience also means, in my view, that you start striving to make something happen on your terms or timeline. That equates to stepping outside God’s will which can lead to some dangerous consequences.

So I’m resolving here and now to be patient with life. To relax and chill over things I choose not to control coz I’ve given Him reign in that area of my life.

To not get too enthusiastic about people I click with coz it might scare them away. To not put unrealistic expectations on others. To take things slowly and be at peace with all those around me. To love greatly and forgive quickly.

I’m not saying I’ll get it right all the time but this is the direction I want to travel in.

– Ames –

new vantage point

I’m normally leading Bible study on Sunday mornings but today we had a guest speaker and I got my kids to sit in to hear the sermon.  I sat in the last pew of the church so I was able to observe the congregation from a new vantage point.

A new member of our church gave a testimony – the prayers that we’d been praying for him and his family were answered this week.

I looked over to my left and saw the young mother that got baptised earlier this year.

A few rows ahead I saw the lady who’d just come to Christ two months ago and then seated next to her was the other woman whose life had been radically changed within the month.

Just before the offering, a new mother snuck in the back with her sleeping baby in her arms.  She is going to be baptised next month.  She was followed by her sister (who also got baptised earlier this year) and then her cousin and her soon to be cousin-in-law who are getting baptised as well and getting married in our church in a few weeks.

I couldn’t help but sit back in awe and praise God for using our church in the way since He closed the door on the previous chapter of our ministry.  It’s been such a blessing to see God at work and being a part of it.  Coming home excited and encouraged after church happened less often than not where we were last stationed so it’s a refreshing and welcomed change.

There’s a season for everything and right now, we are in the season of growth and multiplication.  It is good.  God is good.  All the time :).

– Ames –


Every movie starts with a script.  It is impossible for a script to go into production without a rewrite.

1 This is the word that came to Jeremiah from the LORD: 2 “Go down to the potter’s house, and there I will give you my message.” 3 So I went down to the potter’s house, and I saw him working at the wheel. 4 But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him.

5 Then the word of the LORD came to me. 6 He said, “Can I not do with you, Israel, as this potter does?” declares the LORD. “Like clay in the hand of the potter, so are you in my hand, Israel.

Jeremiah 18:1-6

…what also happens in our script is that there are characters that populate our script.  And because of some things that happen, we invested in characters that don’t belong in our scene.  There are people who are occupying places in our scene that don’t belong.  So God has to do a rewrite to bring certain characters in and move some characters out.  You cannot be so caught up in your scene that you don’t allow God to bring in the right people at the right time.  There are some characters that you are holding onto right now that you’ve got to let go.  You might have to cry over it, you might have to be depressed over it but let them go. Because God has the right character at the right time that he is waiting to write into your scene but because you were holding onto to that less than character, God says, “I have to wait.  I have to wait until you let go and let me write into your scene the person that I need to come in.”  Are you going to let God write the right characters into your life today?

What is interesting is that when we look at this process of being rewritten, so many times we don’t want to submit.  We don’t want to give it up.  We don’t want to allow God to do His work.  But a script cannot move forward to production unless you submit to the process. 

To hear the full message by Devon Franklin click here.

In a few days, it will be exactly a year that I left my home church of 22 years for the very last time.  In the space of 365 days much has changed.  God has been rewriting my script.  He has brought new people, new friendships, new ministries, new vision and new inspirations.  At first, I didn’t want to let go.  We had so much history together.  We shared our dreams, our hopes, our fears, our lives together.   Surely, God wouldn’t ask me to give this up.  Something that I held so dearly.  But, in my limited capacity, I could only see what was before me while God could see what he wanted to bring into my life.  Now I see and God? How awesome You are!  I can see the growth, expanding of territory and ground.  I know I am not the same girl I was when I walked away and though I treasured that season of my life, there’s no going back if I want to be all God has called me to be.

Edited 1:30pm, 11.04.12.

♥ Ames

it makes you wonder.

When you hear a song, when you see a familiar street corner, when you meet a mutual friend…

Did it really happen?  It makes you wonder.

Everything seems like such a distant memory now.

Almost like it was just a bad dream and I’ve finally woken up.

Life never quite turns out the way you once hoped for.

And sometimes, that is such a good thing :).

Am I glad (so glad!) things didn’t turned out the way we planned.

♥ Ames

‘bouncing off the walls’

That’s how I would describe how I feel right now.  I must have been living out such a dampened version of myself for so long that I’d forgotten just how amazing it is to be completely free and fully alive in Christ!  I imagine this is how some people feel like after they have received Christ for the first time after living in darkness for many years… to have the light switches flicked on and the world become bright, beautiful and technicolour :).

By the grace of God, I grew up in a strong Christian home.  There hasn’t been a day where I was not aware that God loved me and for that I am so thankful.  However, because of such a strong foundation, there was also no miraculous conversion story – my faith journey had always been a steady one of gradual growth and maturity up to October 2009.  This is not necessarily a bad thing but I think I began to settle into a comfortable kind of Christianity, where prayer and reading the Bible was more about what I wanted and thought I needed and very little about practically reaching out to the lost souls that are crying out for a Saviour.  I think I became complacent and started living out from a place of working for my righteousness rather than depending on God’s grace in all areas of my life.  It became time for God to shake me out of my self-focused Christian stupor.

I remember once secretly wishing that I had an awesome testimony like the drug dealers and prostitutes who suddenly surrender their lives to Christ after an encounter with God.  I wished that I would have an amazing story to tell people where they would just get blown away with God’s grace and love.  Be careful of what you wish for as you might just get more than you bargained for lol.

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taste and see

When you know God, you can’t help but want to keep knowing him and loving him more. This sometimes conflicts with some other things you used to love, and it often means letting go of things that were once important to you. But you can’t stop, because even if you want to, you cannot turn your back on this irresistible grace.

– taken from good times with ben

Lately, this is something I’ve been challenged with as well.  I find that as I get to know God more, there are some things that I used to do or watch (without a second thought) that no longer draw me anymore.  It’s like the scales have been lifted off of my eyes and what I used to count as ‘entertainment’, strikes a discord with my heart.  The images and language make me uncomfortable now.  I’m left wondering what I found appealing in the first place… the spirit grows stronger as the flesh diminishes.

Taste and see that the Lord is good. – Psalm 34:8

♥ Ames