7 more days…

11 days early!  That has to be some tertiary education record or something lol well at least for me it is!  I’ve never submitted anything so early in my life!  And it came quite easily and I’m kind of proud of the work too… it’s truly a miracle, praise God!!

I can almost smell the ‘freedom’ in the air :P

Almost there!  7 more days to be exact.  I can feel the sense of anticipation rising up in my spirit… I can’t wait!

It’s funny because when I was on the verge of completing my undergraduate degree, I didn’t feel ready to go out into the ‘real’ world and work from 9-5… there was next to no appeal and I was glad to be going back for further study after the summer holidays.  However, after another 3 years, I’m truly done.  I’ve matured.  I’m ready.  I’m ready for a new challenge.  Uni was 6 years that shaped me as a person and I think it has served it’s purpose.  Working full-time is no longer daunting but something I’m looking forward to.  And it’s not because it’s something I’ve never tried before – my clerkships have shown me that I’m capable and I’ve got what it takes to pursue the dreams and purposes that God has placed in me.  God put it all there to begin with and now that the time is right, I can hear him say, “It’s your time to shine, my Beloved!”

Flourish, baby, flourish! – Bobbie Houston (2012 Colour Conference)

– Ames –

do what you love

I’d heard it said before but something just clicked when I got to the end of this post (you should really go check it out so that there’s context for this quote):

So simply put, whether Christian or not – find what you want love to do and find a way to make it your living. As a Christian find it and use it for God’s glory and the good of people.

Heart to Hands: Everyday Journey of a young leader

This reminds me of the verse I posted about recently.

What do I love to do?

  • I love to help people – I can do this through my role as a lawyer in the future (I will get paid).
  • I love investing in the lives of young people and seeing them grow – I’m currently doing this through life group and Sunday School at church (voluntary).
  • I love to write – I blog… not sure how I can get paid to do it but I’m sure it’s possible.  But all for God’s glory and for the good of people – that I can do.

That’s a good start I guess…

– Ames –

lethargic

Feeling a bit despondent, tired, lethargic – not sure if it’s from the aftermath of my first gym sesh in over a week, the rainy weather or if it’s something else.  Maybe it’s a combination of everything.

I don’t feel satisfied with the way I’m doing life at the moment.

I’m not being all I wanna be.  I feel like I’m living less than my calling.

I know what I’ll be doing in the short-term.

  • 2 more papers
  • 1 exam
  • overseas trip
  • starting a new job next year

 

It’s all the stuff in between that is unknown.  I don’t know what to do with my desire to see our church grow, to bring more people into the Kingdom.  I see a church that attracts people because they know their lives will be changed when they come.  I see a church that is impacting the community for Jesus.

Should I go to Bible College?  I wanna preach but I know I don’t have the time to adequately invest into preaching a good sermon.  I feel like I have all the tools but not the time… or maybe I do – but I’ll need to give up other things to do it… hmmm.

Lord, I just wanna do what you want me to do.  Open my eyes to see the path you want me to take.  I surrender it all to you.

I think I need a nap (sorry for the randomness).

– Ames –

another milestone

Took a break from the books tonight after handing in one piece of assessment and also to prematurely celebrate the last day of law school!   I say prematurely because there is still 4 pieces of writing left to do and one exam to conquer.

Still, it’s a milestone nevertheless.

The three years really have flown – so much knowledge crammed, so many new experiences had, so much growing did (not sure if that made grammatical sense but oh well).

Each year was different.  The first began with such bright hopes for the future and ended with me barely surviving.

The second year, I was still trying to rid myself of the residue of the past but God gave me a prophetic word for the next season of my life and in turn, opened new doors and new ministries.  By the end of it, I was riding a new wave of momentum and the world was my oyster.

I started this year with a Daniel fast, seeking God for the next 12 months and what a journey he has taken me on!  My faith has been stretched, the depth of my relationship with Him has deepened and my appreciation for God’s grace has increased… and the year isn’t even over yet!

Praise Him for His faithfulness and great love for His children.  I can’t wait to see what else he has in store!

“No eye has seen, no ear has heard,
    and no mind has imagined
what God has prepared
    for those who love him.”

1 Corinthians 2:9

– Ames –

the bright side of life

So three doors have closed.

Disappointed but the reality is that God’s got another path for me to travel and there’s peace in knowing that.

Now that things have settled, I can now explore other options, and you know what?

The future looks bright :).

There are actually still heaps of opportunities out there and the worse case scenario isn’t that bad anyway.  Knowing God has it all together and isn’t stressing out about my future, means that I really shouldn’t be stressing out either!

In the same way I didn’t get into law school the first time round, I’m certain that if this is what God has called me to do, he’ll prepare the way for me to get there somehow :).  This is just another stepping stone in the process of something bigger in store for me :).

The tune, “Always walk on the bright side of life” is running through my head right now ^^

– Ames

work while you wait

So I preached this past weekend.

Definitely felt like there was an improvement from the first time and had some positive feedback, though having said that, I did speak mainly from the message I heard from the first message from Elevation Church’s series, ‘The Waiting Room’.  Holly Furtick, Pastor Steven’s wife shared the message so I felt like it was something that I could replicate in some form, putting in my own examples and personal experiences.

The key passage was Acts 16:22-34 which retells how Paul and Silas’ stint in prison and how they did not wait around complaining about their predicament but instead saw their time in prison as an opportunity to glorify God and got to work i.e. led the jail-keeper and his family to believe in God.

Key message: What seems to be like a pointless, or even painful waiting room, may be God’s most productive work room.

Key points:

  1. You have to resist the urge to complain, and fill your situation with praise
  2. Preoccupy ourselves with fulfilling God’s purpose rather than escaping your problem
  3. Our detours are often God’s destinations

I felt that it was incredibly relevant to our English service congregation, being made up of students and young families who all go through periods of waiting i.e. for studies to finish or kids to grow up.  What I didn’t know was how relevant this message would be for me today.

Today as I waited for the grad job calls… that never came.  One is definitely a no-go (I’m actually quite relieved about that one) but the other two places where I was for 3-4 weeks have yet to get back to me.

And honestly?  Waiting sucks.  How tempting it is to put real life on hold just to wait on an answer… especially when you hear of others getting their offers.  I started having doubts and began to consider possibilities that had never crossed my mind before.  I had to purposely take myself through these thought processes (with some help from my parents – thank God for them) and remind myself that God’s provision is more than enough and He knows what’s best for me.  And give myself a bit of a reality check – in the grand scheme of things, this is only a small blip on the radar.

Well, there are still 2 more days before I really need to start considering my other options.  Until then, I’ll continue doing what I know to do and work while I wait.

– Ames

surrender

Surrender.  Surrender. – That’s what I hear ringing through my head.

Surrender to my ways.  

I am, Lord.  If I haven’t fully, help me, Lord.

Surrender that pen.  I’m writing your story.  Do we really have to go down this route again?

Take it, Lord.  I know you have my best intentions at heart so how could I do anything but that.

Do you trust me?  Do you trust me with your life?  Do you trust me with your future?

I do, Lord.

Then you know what to do.

Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. – Psalm 51:10.

♥ Ames