‘bouncing off the walls’

That’s how I would describe how I feel right now.  I must have been living out such a dampened version of myself for so long that I’d forgotten just how amazing it is to be completely free and fully alive in Christ!  I imagine this is how some people feel like after they have received Christ for the first time after living in darkness for many years… to have the light switches flicked on and the world become bright, beautiful and technicolour :).

By the grace of God, I grew up in a strong Christian home.  There hasn’t been a day where I was not aware that God loved me and for that I am so thankful.  However, because of such a strong foundation, there was also no miraculous conversion story – my faith journey had always been a steady one of gradual growth and maturity up to October 2009.  This is not necessarily a bad thing but I think I began to settle into a comfortable kind of Christianity, where prayer and reading the Bible was more about what I wanted and thought I needed and very little about practically reaching out to the lost souls that are crying out for a Saviour.  I think I became complacent and started living out from a place of working for my righteousness rather than depending on God’s grace in all areas of my life.  It became time for God to shake me out of my self-focused Christian stupor.

I remember once secretly wishing that I had an awesome testimony like the drug dealers and prostitutes who suddenly surrender their lives to Christ after an encounter with God.  I wished that I would have an amazing story to tell people where they would just get blown away with God’s grace and love.  Be careful of what you wish for as you might just get more than you bargained for lol.

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positives in the pain

  • At least it’s the weekend and I’m not missing class
  • At least my left foot is working fine
  • At least I have a loving father who cancelled his appointments to take me to the doctor :)
  • At least my hands are fine
  • At least I had the time to listen to a podcast that gave me the courage to take another step in the letting go process
  • At least I had a bed I could rest in
  • At least I’ve been reminded of the gift of health

The last point made me think of The Church and about how each Christian is a part of the body of Christ.  When one part of the body is hurt, the whole body suffers and can’t function properly.  We are all unique just as each part of the physical body is unique and has a special part to play.  We need to appreciate each other, know that we all have a different purpose and work together in harmony… just like each part of the body.

♥ Ames

If we love a person…

If we love a person, we like to think about him. We do not need to be reminded of him. We do not forget his name or his appearance or his character or his opinions or his tastes or his position or his occupation… Well, it is just so between the true Christian and Christ!

If we love a person, we like to hear about him. We find a pleasure in listening to those who speak of him. We feel an interest in any report which others make of him… Well, it is just so between the true Christian and Christ!

If we love a person, we like to read about him. What intense pleasure a letter from an absent husband gives to a wife, or a letter from an absent son to his mother… Well, it is just so between the true Christian and Christ!

If we love a person, we like to please him. We are glad to consult his tastes and opinions, to act upon his advice and do the things which he approves… Well, it is just so between the true Christian and Christ!

If we love a person, we like his friends. We are favorably inclined to them, even before we know them. We are drawn to them by the common tie of common love to one and the same person… Well, it is just so between the true Christian and Christ!
If we love a person, we are jealous about his name and honor. We do not like to hear him spoken against, without speaking up for him and defending him… Well, it is just so between the true Christian and Christ!

If we love a person, we like to talk to him. We tell him all our thoughts, and pour out all our heart to him. We find no difficulty in discovering subjects of conversation… Well, it is just so between the true Christian and Christ!

Finally, if we love a person, we like to be always with him. Thinking and hearing and reading and occasionally talking are all well in their way. But when we really love people we want something more… Well, it is just so between the true Christian and Christ!

J. C. Ryle, Holiness (Darlington, England: Evangelical Press,) 247-249.

– taken from Desiring God blog post