this waiting thing

I’m impatient.

Sometimes I wish I could just skip ahead and see how this story is meant to unfold.

But I know it’s here in this limbo “what, when, who” land that I’m having to trust God more than ever.

It’s in the unknown that our faith is tested.

No matter how long it’s gonna take, no matter how long I gotta wait, God, I surrender it again to you (seems like this is becoming a regular thing, no?).

I’m holding my heart out.  

——-

Love, where is your fire? I’ve been sitting here smoking away
Making signals with sticks and odd ends and bits,
But still there’s no sign of a flame
Imposters have been passing, offering a good-feeling glow
But I’m holding out for what you are about – an inferno that burns to the bone
Some urge me to be temperate, lukewarm will never do

[Chorus:]
‘Cause I, I wanna (know I’ll) blaze with you
So I’m holding my heart out to you
Holding my heart out

So I stand, handing out torches
Speaking words that are lamps to their feet
Til’ the time when you come and I’m whole and we are one and the fire in me is complete
Some tell me to be moderate but lukewarm will never do

[Bridge:]
Then a doubt comes to lie at the back of my mind
That I’ll offer you me and you’ll politely decline (no thank you)
So I hasten to mute it, I’ll shout and rebuke it – “away! ”

Love, Where is your fire? Brooke Fraser

– Ames –

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Like This: Waste Another Day, Brooke Fraser

Found this old Brooke Fraser song recently… I bought her first album years back and listened to it continuously until I misplaced it one day.  She has definitely grown and changed much as an artist over the span of her career but one things that has remained all the way through is her ability to weave a beautiful story in her songs.  This one was no exception:

Don’t you say it’s too early
Baby I don’t wanna waste the day
When we’ve everything on our side
And nothing in our way

We can do what we wanna
‘Cos today the world is ours
Nothing gray, just real-time and colour
In which to whittle away the hours

We could speak ’til nothing’s left unspoken
We could drive ’til we’ve run out of road
We could drink ’til we’ve emptied the ocean
But I’d be happy here
Happy just to hold you

[Chorus]
‘Til the suns and planets disappear
I could stay in your arms all year
Even if that means infinity through
If being productive is being with you
Then baby I don’t want to waste another day

I’ll shout aloud what I’m feeling
Let my tongue be still no more
Now I know that it’s the real thing
Just try and keep me quiet about it
Oh…

‘Cos we could stare until we both are blinded
We could fall ’til gravity gets tired
We could lose our love just to re-find it
But I’m just happy here
Happy staying beside you

Waste Another Day, Brooke Fraser

I’m looking forward to singing this to you one day :).

– Ames – 

autumn on the ground…

Last post before lockdown for the 3 day exam…

A song that came up on shuffle during this morning’s run.  I thought it was timely since autumn was all around me :).

In the autumn on the ground,
between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through
I watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories – whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you
I’ll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
When it’s time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

[CHORUS:]
I’ll be waiting for you, baby
I’ll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we’re ready, til it’s right
Love is waiting

It’s my caution not the cold
There’s no other hand that I would rather hold
The climate changes, I’m singing for the strangers about you
Don’t keep time, slow the pace
Honey, hold on if you can
The bets are getting surer now that you’re my man

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE:]
I could write a million songs about the way you say my name
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again
And like I can’t force the sun to rise or hasten summer’s start,
Neither should I rush my way into your heart

– Love Is Waiting, Brooke Fraser

♥ Ames