It wasn’t a dream this time. You know the mix of thoughts you have just before you fall asleep? They say that whatever is in your heart will manifest itself in some shape or form whether you will it to or not…
In an ideal world, she’d be able to stroll through those same gardens with him without any emotional residue.
In an ideal world, she’d tell him how she really doesn’t hold anything against him anymore and how she has been so much better off without him.
In an ideal world, he’d understand exactly where she is coming from and accept that he must mean nothing to her in order to start again.
In an ideal world, she’d tell him how wonderful it has been to live in the very near presence of their Saviour and how he needs to find his rest and renewal from Him alone.
In an ideal world, she’d be able to articulate clearly and joyfully to him about how she sees the pieces fit all together now.
In an ideal world, he’d agree with everything she says because she’s just cool like that (hahaha- just kidding!).
But the world isn’t ideal and her head doesn’t really want those things… right?
Her mind turns to sweeter thoughts of her Beloved. That’s right, she doesn’t want to risk crossing the line again for the sake of her Beloved. She doesn’t want to run the risk of sharing the innermost thoughts she’d reserved for her Beloved with someone who… well, isn’t her Beloved. She remembers the Father’s wisdom to drop that hinderance, promising that whenever He asks her to lay something down, it is because He has something more worthy of her attention and efforts in store. And He always keeps His promises because lying would be against His very nature.
And, what do you know? She has fallen asleep with a smile on her face.
“If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they’re yours; if they don’t they never were.” – Richard Bach