Feeling a bit despondent, tired, lethargic – not sure if it’s from the aftermath of my first gym sesh in over a week, the rainy weather or if it’s something else. Maybe it’s a combination of everything.
I don’t feel satisfied with the way I’m doing life at the moment.
I’m not being all I wanna be. I feel like I’m living less than my calling.
I know what I’ll be doing in the short-term.
- 2 more papers
- 1 exam
- overseas trip
- starting a new job next year
It’s all the stuff in between that is unknown. I don’t know what to do with my desire to see our church grow, to bring more people into the Kingdom. I see a church that attracts people because they know their lives will be changed when they come. I see a church that is impacting the community for Jesus.
Should I go to Bible College? I wanna preach but I know I don’t have the time to adequately invest into preaching a good sermon. I feel like I have all the tools but not the time… or maybe I do – but I’ll need to give up other things to do it… hmmm.
Lord, I just wanna do what you want me to do. Open my eyes to see the path you want me to take. I surrender it all to you.
I think I need a nap (sorry for the randomness).