let your faith be bigger than your fear.
do whatever it takes to master it.
It sounds a bit odd to say/type it out but I feel… I feel like I’m changing. I feel like there is a pull on my heart for more. Like there is ‘more’ for me than the here and now… what ‘more’ means/is, is another matter. I don’t know what it is but I know I want it now more than ever before.
With the benefit of hindsight, I can see that He has been taking me through a detox for my soul in the last few months, perhaps even the last year or two. He has brought me to the end of myself time and time again, so that the ‘head’ knowledge of who He is, translates into a real ‘heart’ understanding of His desire for me… for all of me. Not just my Sundays, my prayer time, my Bible reading time but all. He’s brought up many things that had existed in me without my knowledge and one by one, I’ve had to let Him strip them away so that there is less of the ‘self’ and more room for Him. I’ve had to surrendered things that I never had problems with before but now, the thought of them just grate against every fibre in my body.
I know it’s not the life that I planned and perhaps that’s why I’m ready to let go. Lord, I just pray that you would bring some other people who are travelling this way to my attention and circle. It feels a tad lonely at times. But would I give it up? No way.
And Lord, help me not to be judgemental of others. Remind me constantly that You have a time and place for everything and just because I’m ‘here’ doesn’t mean everyone else is ready to be ‘here’ yet. Give me Your patience and love so that I can lead others into Your very presence.
I’m Yours… for keeps.