Technology can be so frustrating sometimes. One minute it works, one minute it doesn’t >.<. I’ve been struggling with my wireless router connection for the last hour or so to no avail… it is especially irritating because when our family friend was over this morning, it had worked fine after a few clicks! Grrrrr….
Something popped up recently that struck a nerve again…. how annoying when you think you’ve made peace with an issue, only for it to tempt you to take several steps backwards in progress. Sometimes I wonder if there are wounds that are so deep that it’s impossible to heal completely? Will there always be a scar that, if continually poked at enough, will eventually reopen buried disappointments? But I KNOW that I know that I know, that God can do miracles and heal the brokenhearted and I KNOW that I know that I know, that I’ve recovered a lot quicker than most people had or would have expected (except for maybe myself… I always thought I could spring back in no time!)…. but still, sometimes I catch myself absent-mindedly falling into old habits or old mindsets that I need to consciously shake off and then realign my mind and actions to focus on something productive and healthy. It’s then that I realise how helpless I am, how much I need to depend on God… perhaps the scar will always be there as a reminder that my ability to move forward does not flow out from my own mental capacities but from Him, His strength, His grace and His mercy alone.
[addition] ‘Even [physical] scars disappear gradually, if not from the skin tissue, than at least from one’s direct attention.’ – BestFromBelgium